fifty_foot_queenie’s blog

this week's been excellent so far...i am bored to death sitting in my house alone while manny is in cali. i am officially talking to my cats like a crazy person. i have had terrible insomnia this week, since sunday i have slept a grand total of seven hours - an hour and a half sunday, then three hours each monday and last night.  i want to shoot myself in the head.  also, i sprained my knee at work monday.  i have to dogsit because my boss brings his dog to work every day and dumps it off with me...anywyas, it dashed outside monday when i went to get the mail, so i ran after it because it's old and deaf and i didn't want it to get into the street as we are right off 436, proceeded to trip over all the rocks and gravel that make up the yard, and sprained my knee.  sat at centra care for three hours, got a knee brace and two incredibly expensive prescriptions for muscle relaxers and painkillers that make me feel like a zombie, and that is that. 

an excellent week so far indeed!

What do you most hate sharing with other people?

i can't share any kind of personal hygiene stuff...toothbrushes, deodorant, anything that is something only one person's germs should be on.  ugh. 

i'm also not a fan of sharing books or cd's that are my favorites or that can't be replaced if i don't get them back....i will loan anything to any of my friends because i know they will take care of my things and will return them, but i have serious reservations about loaning things like that to people i don't know will return them in the same condition they were in when i loaned them out.

and i guess if you want to get all emo about it i dislike sharing my feelings with most people, especially if i have an issue with them.  i don't like to hurt anyone and i hate to fight, so i tend to keep things like that to myself as much as i can.  yes, i know it's unhealthy behavior, but it's the truth.  it's different with those close to me but even then i hesitate to a certain extent because i don't want to hurt anyone's feelings, or worry them, or be judged, or whatever.  i'm neurotic.

Do you have a particular "catch phrase" for which you are known?
Submitted by Emu with a Clue.

any form of the word fuck, if profanity counts.  otherwise, probably "awesome" or, "aw". not necessarily because i like these words, or because i don't have an actual vocabulary, but because it seems to pacify people who babble. 

and i do, too.  yesterday was a crap day, i busted my butt all day long, even worked through lunch, and still felt like i got nothing done.  mostly because i was still trying to get our email fixed here in the office and it was still not letting me send anything.  because i've been spending so much time working on things like that, my 78 year old boss who hates computers thinks i'm not doing any real work, such as making sales calls.  today, i got everything fixed all on my own and feel quite smart thanks for asking, got a ton of stuff caught up on, and am now at a point where i can do work that my boss will see as beneficial instead of me avoiding real work.  after i take this break of course!  i'm alone so i can pace myself accordingly. 

last night i watched into the wild, the movie based on the book by jon krakauer (who wrote under the banner of heaven).  oh wow, did i like it.  i liked it a lot!  it's incredibly sad towards the end, but i recommend it.  and now of course i have to get my hands on the book (if i ever finish bonfire of the vanities!).  in case you haven't heard of it, it's about a young man who graduates from college, gives his savings away to charity, and leaves to travel cross country to the wilds of alaska to live a life free from society.  he eventually dies, moose hunters find his body, and the movie (and book) is all about where he went, how he got there, and how he dies.  hal holbrook is so freaking good in the movie too...had javier bardem not been nominated for an oscar i feel sure hal holbrook would have been a bigger contender.  we rented no country for old men to watch again too, so i am sure i'll be comparing performances.  after top model of course.  yes, i watch top model dammit! i'm not ashamed, i watch a lot of crappy tv. smoking pot will make you watch anyting for ten minutes, i'll be the first to admit it.  i've gotten myself sucked into far too many awful programs because of this tendency (vh1, i'm talking to you!)  if HBO would get some good programming back on the air i might avoid this tragic behavior.

i seriously think that if i can swing it, sometime very soon i need a mind-obliterating night of drinking. i'm talking shitty, sloppy, can't remember what happened last night wasted.  i would love to have a night free of fights, worry, panic, sadness, or stress.  depending on the rest of my week this just may have to happen friday after my show since i have to work the rest of the damn weekend.

anyone care to assist in fucking me up beyond all comprehension?  truly, you would be my hero.

If you knew you had one week to live, what would you do, where would you go, who would you see? 
Submitted by normatheartist

i would figure out a way to travel back in time and spend the week in new york in 1977.

the mudd club, cbgb's, seeing everyone from the talking heads to the ramones to patti smith....tell me that wouldn't be awesome!

What celebrity do you most often get told you resemble? 
Submitted by Leets.  

i've been told i remind people of winona ryder, to which i say I WISH!  i'm positive it has to do with the hair.

Icky Thump

The White Stripes

if you guys love me enough you'll get it for me for my birthday.  heh.

Let's see if I can keep up with this a little better than some of the other blogging sites I currently belong to!